A Very Quick History of a Course in Wonders
I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is trading (sharing) a Music of Love and Development or judgments of the vanity predicated on what you look for (agree with) in the mind. There’s number other way. In the Program, the mind (content) is separate between God and the pride; and you’re selecting all the time with a side as cause for effect.
Types (all things of this world) are miscreations reflecting the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve made it up (miscreated this world) and will give it up any time by improving your head (forgiveness). True prayer needs this modification of your head as God has nothing related to forms.
What Prayer is Maybe not:
Since you are always choosing, what you require whenever you pray is what counts. Once you plead in prayer to have God correct a form problem with another variety problem, you’re asking the pride brain for support (not God). These types and wants are regarded more crucial than God’s Enjoy that will remain concealed to the amount you decide on the illusion.
All external things (forms) are needs. Other brands are wants, needs, status, problems, sickness, human enjoy (special relationships), gifts and targets these days, etc. They’re everything you choose as substitutes for God’s Love and the ego will distort the purpose of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Thus, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in just about any way.